In or Out

People keep asking me, well, telling me that I need to talk him out of re-enlisting again and to talk him into getting out once this contract is up and I honestly cannot do that. They keep saying "you have to talk him out of it. don't you want him home with you and safe?" ---OF COURSE I want him home with me everyday and safe but I want him HAPPY. Truly happy. And if his work in the Army and going SF and whatever other plans he has in mind...if that is what makes him happy, then I am happy.

Yes I will continue to live a life of worry and being scared for his life each time he deploys....but just like when people say to the guys in the military, "you signed up for this", well as a military wife...I signed up for it too. I supported him 100% when we started dating and I will continue to support him 100% in any decision he makes to stay in or get out.

Zak is not a desk job kind of person. If he were to get out of the Army he would go into a private security contracting agency and do what he does now, deployments and all, it just wouldnt be "military". So to ask him or try to talk him out of doing what he loves....that would be turing my back on my husband. If Zak went to a job that he hated and was bored to tears with, that negative energy would come home with him and bring negativity on our marriage and our family ---so no that does not seem like a good trade off to me.

I am sorry for those who think I am a bad person or wife because I am keeping my husband "in dangers way" and if that is how it is taken, you are sorely mistaken. I love my husband will all that I am, and am terrified for each deployment but the strength of our relationship, the happiness, bond and love we share is so perfectly unique that I never for a second question the toll his military career will take on us...because it will not do any damage, it will only make us stronger and better.

If the day comes where Zak choses on his own that he wants to get out of the Army, then like I said, I support him completely because that is a choice he is making on his own but I will never push or pursued him to do so. It does not make me a bad person or wife to support my husband in his dreams and careers.

Sorry for the vent.

Happy Anniversary!

One year ago today I married my best friend and the love of my life.

This one year of marriage has been an incredible experience. Ups and downs. Smiles and tears. Laughing until our faces hurt and fighting until our hearts hurt. Kisses a million times a day. We definitely over use "I love you" in the best way possible. We are literally each others "other half". I cannot imagine being married to anyone else. We complement each other so well and fit so perfectly together. Even if I had the chance, I would not have changed one single day or moment of this marriage and new life together.
If you go back to the very first post of this blog, and those who actually know myself and Zak, know that him and I have been through so much together since we first started dating in 2008. I can honestly say that there is nothing...absolutely nothing....that could bend or break us. No matter what went on in our lives before we got married, we always found our way back to each other and once we made the ultimate promise of marriage, there is nothing that could ever separate us or alter anything about us.

We have created such a wonderful life together. I know I should be able to just go on and on about how excited I am to be married to the man of my dreams for a year but honestly....I do not know how to put how happy I am and how in love I am and always will be with my husband. Words cannot do it justice. So I am just sitting here, staring at the screen with my heart over joyed on the love I share with my husband and the love we share with out son and how excited I am to continue this marriage for so many more years to come.

So, all I can really say is.....

I love our love story. It's perfect. It's unique. It's our own.

I love you Zakary Damon


-Mira

I'm Going to Miss This...

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Grayson absolutely loves his kisses from Zak. He get's so giggly and huge smiles. One night Zak was giving his Daddy kisses to Grayson and Grayson kept turning his head to kiss Zak back.

A.D.O.R.A.B.L.E.

I watch this video almost everyday because it makes me so happy so I wanted to share.