People keep asking me, well, telling me that I need to talk him out of re-enlisting again and to talk him into getting out once this contract is up and I honestly cannot do that. They keep saying "you have to talk him out of it. don't you want him home with you and safe?" ---OF COURSE I want him home with me everyday and safe but I want him HAPPY. Truly happy. And if his work in the Army and going SF and whatever other plans he has in mind...if that is what makes him happy, then I am happy.
Yes I will continue to live a life of worry and being scared for his life each time he deploys....but just like when people say to the guys in the military, "you signed up for this", well as a military wife...I signed up for it too. I supported him 100% when we started dating and I will continue to support him 100% in any decision he makes to stay in or get out.
Zak is not a desk job kind of person. If he were to get out of the Army he would go into a private security contracting agency and do what he does now, deployments and all, it just wouldnt be "military". So to ask him or try to talk him out of doing what he loves....that would be turing my back on my husband. If Zak went to a job that he hated and was bored to tears with, that negative energy would come home with him and bring negativity on our marriage and our family ---so no that does not seem like a good trade off to me.
I am sorry for those who think I am a bad person or wife because I am keeping my husband "in dangers way" and if that is how it is taken, you are sorely mistaken. I love my husband will all that I am, and am terrified for each deployment but the strength of our relationship, the happiness, bond and love we share is so perfectly unique that I never for a second question the toll his military career will take on us...because it will not do any damage, it will only make us stronger and better.
If the day comes where Zak choses on his own that he wants to get out of the Army, then like I said, I support him completely because that is a choice he is making on his own but I will never push or pursued him to do so. It does not make me a bad person or wife to support my husband in his dreams and careers.
Sorry for the vent.
I think it's wonderful that you support Zak so completely. God calls us to support and stand beside our husbands and you do a wonderful job of that. I'm thankful to him for his dedication to our country. It's men(and women) with the passion for it that keep us safe and take care of us.
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