Prayers for Grammy (Day 34)

My Grandmother -Grammy as we call her- has been in the hospital for about a month,if not longer and needs all the prayers we can give her.

She went in for a colonoscopy because she was losing weight and the doctor said there was a kink due to a mesh that was placed years back from a prior surgery and the mesh had attached itself to the bowl and caused the kink. Well he bowl was is such bad shape apparently that it was knicked and caused leakage so they had to go in and do surgery. The fixed it, or so they thought and sent her to  a rehab facility...well to not make this a long novel, she was taken out of the nursing home/rehab facility due to poor treatment and also had to have 2 other bowl resection surgeries after that because of holes in her bowl. This was hard to repair and hard to keep her tissue in tact because the doctors said sewing her tissue was like trying to sew something the consistency of wet toilet paper......not good.

She has had drains in to drain the fluid and drain the bowl to keep it from entering her abdomen, she has not been allowed food for weeks now, only a very small amount of ice chips and they finally gave her a "shake" type of drink but now because she has had high fevers and the drainage is not slowing down they have put her on very a restricted ice chip diet yet again. They have tried many different things for Grammy to try to fix all of this and make her well again but her tissue is just not holding up strong enough for everything to repair and heal properly.

She has been up and down, good days and bad days for a little over a week but is now having to go into her 4th surgery this Friday.

If this surgery does not prove to help anything, this will be it, there is nothing else the doctors can do and they will suggest she go to hospice....not at all the out come any of us want. Grammy does not know that yet I have been told.

...My Uncle died a year ago due to cancer and it was a long and hard battle -this was my mothers brother as Grammy is my Mothers Mom...

Anyway, while my Uncle was going through his first surgery my Aunt Lorna told him she would give him $100 if he made it through the surgery and my Mom would give him another $100 when he was able to go home....I guess this "bribe" if you want to call it that was a good motive for my Uncle and he made it home, and every surgery after, he expected this motivational bribe. Well my Aunt has decide to do a bit of the same thing but this time she told Grammy if she made it through this surgery and made it through her recovery then next year when she is completely healed and healthy again she will take her on a cruise any where she wants to go ---Grammy said she wants to go to Hawaii...hopefully this will prove to be yet again, a very good medical motivator as it was before. My Aunt said, this was the biggest medical "bribe" yet but completely worth every bit of it.

Grammy spirits have been up and down a lot lately -can you expect anything different? I could not imagine what she must be going through. I do imagine she is physically, mentally and emotionally exhausted and I just pray that she stays positive and keeps the fight in her. It is pretty close to a miracle that at her age and how fragile she is that she has made it through 3 surgeries and is still going, so I hope and I pray she keeps that fight alive in her and makes it through this next surgery.

She is never alone at the hospital, either my Mom, or my Aunt Lorna or Aunt Stephanie are there in shifts even through the nights, my sister and my cousin Melissa have taken a couple of "shifts" to be there with her and Grayson and I have been up a few times to visit her but the doctors say to not bring Grayson up that often because of risk of him getting sick from anything in the hospital so I havent been able to visit as much as others which makes me sad but I am also not as good at handling it as everyone else and when I do visit I am very quiet, not meaning to be rude but I just do not know what to say or do because I am scared for her and sad for her and my family ....I wrote about that in a post when she got out of her first surgery and I visited her on that I just do not know how to handle it and I know if Zak were here, he would be so much better at this....

...Anyway, I know it makes her really happy when we do visit though because she gets to see Grayson and I told her last time I was there that she needed to get better so she could hold him again and she said, "I'm trying..I'm trying real hard" :(

I could go on and on about this but please, just please pray for Grammy that she makes it through her surgery on Friday, that she surgery proves to have worked, that no other surgeries are needed and she makes a full recovery.

"Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged, for the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go." Joshua 1:9